WINTER AND SMILES…….THINGS THAT MAKE ME GO..#@*&^%&$ !!

I MADE TO BE WHERE WINTER JUMPS OVER AND SCARES ME NO MORE

I MADE TO BE WHERE WINTER JUMPS OVER AND SCARES ME NO MORE

SO AS WE ENTER WINTER HERE IN KANSAS , I SOULD BE HAPPY IM NOT IN MINN ANYMORE, EVEN THOUGH I WAS ONLY THERE ELEVEN ( 11) MONTHS IT SEEMS LIKE A LIFE TIME. DID I MENTION I WAS IN FEDERAL PRISON? IF NOT…I WAS. WAS CHARGED AND CONVICTIED OF ” CONSPISARY TO DELIVER”  ( METH) , I WAS GIVEN SIXTEY (60) MONTHS BEHIND THE FENCE, STARTED OUT IN SAN ANTONIO TEXAS THEN FORT WORTH TEXAS, TO LAST WASCEKA MN. 9( the coldest place on earth !)

SO AFTER LIVING IN SO. TEXAS THE LAST THRITEEN (13) WINTERS, HAVING TO SPEND REAL WINTERS WAS GOING TO BE A CHALLANGE. GROWING UP I REMEMBER LOOSING MY SMILES, WAS A LOT OF REASONS I YET TO GET AROUND TO TALKING ABOUT. .I’M TOLD THE READERS NEED TO GET TO KNNOW ME, I’M OKAY WITH THAT, BUT ARE THEY READERS REALLY READY TO HEAR ABOUT ME.

SO MANY QUESTIONS PEOPLE HAVE FOR ME, I DON’T MIND TELLING THEM ABOUT, RELIVING THAT NIGHTMARE IS WHAT I REALLY NEED SOMETIME’S, DO PEOPLE REALLY THINK YOU WALK RIGHT OUT OF PRISON AND WALK RIGHT BACK INTO LIFE? WISH IT WAS THAT EASY. I WAS IN A PROGRAM THAT FEDERAL PRISON’S OFFER ( NOT ALL PEOPLE CAN GET INTO THIS PROGRAM )…I MADE IT AND WAS ALMOST KICKED OUT SEVERAL TIMES…..IN THE END …” I  THINK” IT HAS PAID OFF. IT WASN’T ONLY DRUG TREATMENT IT WAS BEHAVIORAL CHANGING. BEING ADDICTED TO ONES BEHAVIOR IS AS BAD AS DRUGS….HELL WHO KNEW??  BUT THAT IS ONLY THE TIP, IT’S ALMOST WINTER HERE, AND TO ME WINTER DAYS ARE LIKE A KID THINKING THEY HAVE A MONSTER IN THEIR CLOSET … I DID.

SO EVERY WEEK AT THREE (3) TIMES A WEEK I AM GOING TO WRITE MORE…

TILL LATER…………….    CHRISTINA , XOXO

“NOT TO FORGIVE IS LIKE YOU DRINKING POSION AND EXPECTING THE OTHER PERSON TO DIE'”

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About cbrewer07

Born in Winfield Ks. lived in Southern California. Moved back to Kansas to live witb dad when I was in 6th gradee. came back to California for 7th grade. 8th grade back to Kansas to live with my father....forever (?).
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